Thursday, March 13, 2008
YIts memories
HELLO
all i need is true friends. friends that last long, friends that really understands me. i doubt i will get any. but now i can only say i have friends but not what i really wanted. like niki, our friendship has already been 9 years old. & i'm still in touch with her. (:
what are true friends? anyone can tell me? i've got so many things to say, but nobody wishes to lend me their ears to let me speak out all this dumb things. true friends are someone who is willing to listen and advice. but i've got none. sometimes i just wish to go to the beach, and scream all this unhappy things out, but noone is there for me. i wanna be great friend to everyone, be there when their sad, share my happiness with them and do all that stuffs for them. its hard to act. but i really want to be there. for everyone i guess. i'm seriously tired.
tired of being there for people, when i know its useless. tired of being alone. tired of everything that i've done. and i'm tired when people gives me all sorts of stupid excuses. i want to leave, can i? i feel so useless. when i can't help my friends. when i'm like an eye sore to them. when i'm like super irritating in all ways. so many people, why am i so ......?
i want someone whom i really can talk to. i just want real .... show to me. who cares anyway?
i'm so tired of talking to myself. i want real friends. i want a friend that really shows warmth and love and listens to my burden.
f. why is it so hard? everyone has one, but i don't.BYE!
Jovin stops at
8:21 PM