Sunday, August 23, 2009
YIts memories
I bet this blog is not visited by anyone already. So... thank god, I guess I found a spot to throw my feelings out.Will anyone really understands how I truly felt..How hurting it can be to be left out, thrown out there to be the last. Never had I confess my feelings to anyone. Its kept inside, deep inside until it is rotting, stinking and getting me so stuffy. I don't know.. I think if i don't write here, I'm going crazy soon. People sees me as strong, and not easily defeated. But see, I just don't know, why I don't show my weak side to anyone. However, I have to admit I am as weak as anyone out there. My heart can't hold any longer, I feel so despair. & so desperate to find someone to listen and share my pain. Who? nobody. I know. I just don't know how to show I'm sad, but only know how to smile at everyone I know. God, I wondered why I always listen to people, but nobody listens to me. Maybe its because I know how it hurts to not be listened to, or maybe because people just don't know. I hate it when people interups me when I talk, I mean, who don't! But I always suck it down my throat to avoid being angry. haa, I really can't find much words to say other than I'm really down and "depressed". I wonder why my mum give birth to me being someone who shows people that she is strong but deep down she is so weak, and that noone is there to help. I really want to.....sigh. Jovin needs a shoulder.
Jovin stops at
3:18 PM