When all that someone does reminds you of how you are being inflicted pain in the past.
Pain not physically, but pyschologically, mentally and socially.

How it actually hurts today is not because it inflicted directly to me, but indirectly.
That it feels so helpless and useless at the same time.
When someone you love, becomes a target of another you love too.
What can actually make us learn, to become a proper human being with real sense of maturity?
Why must it be that you have learnt so much from where you have been planted, all the love, mercy, care and everything, but you did not actually apply them, and in fact misuse them for your own pleasure, own laughter, own popularity. Trying to make others laugh by using the pain of another person.
What exactly is the world coming to?
How can someone actually bear to hurt their own family member? Spiritually..
It's not the first time I've seen this, yet it's not the first time I've been running away from it, trying hard not to think about it. But the more I do that, the more I feel so injusticed\, so ashame of myself that I couldn't be righteous before God.
So much of loving one another, but in actual fact, it's nothing more than a lie. To some extent.
If at least I could do something, I really want to. But I don't want to hurt relationships any further. Lest it's becoming soured. I don't know exactly how I'm feeling right now.
It's like it's been numbed yet painful at the same time.
Why is it that no one is doing the right thing, hiding in their small world, doing the popular stuff instead.
I surely don't want to be one of them. But I feel like one of them, when I couldn't say something to stop these kind of disgusting matter.
If I have just one more chance again, I think, I can't hold back anymore. Be it it will soured this whole entire relationship thing, or not, I have to do what I think it's right... Like don't be a eye-sore or ear-sore by trying to hurt somebody with words that aren't meant to be said.
I definitely feel extremely disgusted by all the immoral acts. Really. They should be considered immoral, since it kinda involve another person's feelings..
Sigh, I have no clue what someone can actually think...
All I know now, I need to do what's right.

No longer I, but He who lives in me.